Ever do something you know you probably shouldn't? Ever make a decision you know you'll probably regret eventually? Why do we do these things? Why do we do things that our mind tells us not to? What creates this disconnect between our reason and our actions? Is it those darn emotions I previously mentioned?
I'm reminded of a passage that I've been reading a lot in Romans:
" I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin."
And the best part, Romans 8:1-2
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death."
It's kind of nice to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with this. I mean, it might be nice if I saw everything as black and white, or maybe just always acted with wisdom, but I don't. Now I'm not saying this passage gives me an excuse ever time I make a poor choice, the rest of Romans speaks to that, but I am saying that its nice to know that perfection isn't expected 100% of the time....cause that's certainly a standard that I could never reach. I would love to go more in depth, but once again, its 5:30 am....two hours until bedtime. Livin the dream :)